Good ‘ole music. How I love thee. Well let’s go one step further, I couldn’t imagine my existence without some kind of music. It’s my passion beyond all else. It has been my friend, my companion, my jealous lover, my sworn enemy, and the emo kid that wants me to cut myself along side of them.
Let me explain. My earliest memories in life are of music. Songs coming across the radio while my mum was trying to get me to go to sleep. It is such an integral part of my existence & my life would be empty without it.
I’m one of these people that has a song attached to every moment in that happens in my life, whether it be good or bad. It can lift my mood into ecstasy, or make me feel so dark I’m almost suicidal. It’s has such a pure emotional affect on me, and I’d be saddened with out it.
For example:
Every time I hear this I can’t wipe the grin off my face. It reminds me of all the great holidays I’ve been on all at once, and also a dance party I went to several years ago. I’m there back in the moment, it’s a reliving experience that is so real in my mind that I can remember what I was thinking, feeling, smelling and experiencing. I get such a wave of emotion that’s hard to explain.
Where this can knock me right through the floor. Make me feel terrible. It reminds me of the first person I feel in love with. Who ended up dying. It does the complete opposite. Can make my mood so dark and brooding, and make me cry like a baby.
So why am I writing about this now.
I’ve found I can pick my mood up almost instantly by picking the right music. I can lift myself to the heavens, remind myself of good friends, of the special people that move in and out of my life. All through music. I don’t need alcohol, i don’t need other enhancements, I can lift my mood higher, and for longer than any artificial stimulate ever could.
It’s been a big part of my revival this year. I’ve removed people from my life that suck my life energy out, that don’t have anything positive to add. I get lonely, but I’m more productive than I’ve ever been. I am totally focused on what I need to do, and what I’m setting out to achieve, and it’s doing wonders for my confidence, and self esteem. I value the friendships I have, and those that have gone. They all played their part on getting to where I am today.
So come along, and create some new tunes for me to remember life by! Life is music, music is life. I can’t tell the difference anymore, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.
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